Life Is Not The Perfect Smooth Road We All Picture Starting Out

When Josh and I got married in November of 2011, I don't think we ever pictured everything that we would have to go through as a married couple.
We were just starting out together and we were convinced that our lives were going to be so much better than everyone elses lives because we were so much smarter and we had it all mapped out. Oh how Naive we were.  We knew without a doubt that we would never need a babysitter, we would never need to file bankruptcy, we would never be short on money, (because we were way smarter than that)..... The list of things that would NEVER happen went on and on. And I guess in our naive state of mind, God decided to take our lives and show us just how much control we had over our lives.  We fought it for a long time and we left many broken hearts and destroyed relationships in our path to proving we DID in fact have control.
I am going to share a little bit of what we have been through in hopes that someone else can glean some wisdom from where we have been.  And share a few of things that we have learned and are still learning.

I think the first lesson that we learned was "God does not always answer your prayers the way you want them to be answered." Of course that lesson took a long time to actually get through my thick skull.
In January of 2012 we found out I was pregnant with Leah Rose. We were more than happy to be expecting. It was a dream come true. In my mind, the pregnancy was going to be a breeze and Leah was going to be born completely healthy on time and nothing to worry about.  Oh boy was I wrong.
The first couple weeks went okay, until I started to feel like I had a severe case of the flu and shortly after that I started bleeding. I was scared to death that I was miscarrying. I went to the ER and they found nothing abnormal other than the bleeding. Which went on through out most of the pregnancy on and off. It ended up being a very scary pregnancy for a first time mom. Everything seemed normal with my beautiful little girl. She was growing like she was supposed to and everything (Other than the bleeding) seemed to be on track. Until I went into labor at 35 weeks. And had her 6 hours later.  Thankfully she appeared healthy and we went on believing our little "fairy tale" plan would pan out.  Shortly after Leah was born she started refusing to eat. She turned the breast, she turned down bottles and even turned down pacifiers. After trying several more nipples and bottles to try to get her to eat, she finally took to one. We thought that our troubles were over. We had a perfect little princess.  We had our whole world in our arms. So tiny and trusting. We had no way of knowing that her problems feeding would be the first of many many more issues that we would face with this little stinker.
I wouldn't trade anything for the world. She is my sweetheart no matter the trials we face. She has turned into my little hero.
I am going to be turning this into a series.  So, much has happened that there is no way that I could ever begin to cover it all in one blog post. So, follow along and be prepared to see some really cute pictures as we go along.

 Please Share this blog post with your friends and lets see how many people we can help. Many others are going through the same things that we are and have come through.  Please comment below with the Link to your awareness page on Facebook. Leah would love to follow you and show Y'all some love.


Bre Shafer AKA Crazy Mama